friends…

11 05 2009

I figured I must be going something terribly wrong because I seem to be losing my friends.  One decision made and told made everyone around me seem different. My friends don’t like my decision and I don’t want to fight them. We are friends. We don’t fight. We support and care of each other. So what am I doing so wrong that I hurt everyone around me?

Strangely enough I feel likt Troy Bolton. I feel like my friends are tearing me down and not backing me up. I’ll quote my cousin when I asked her to stop. She said it’s my life. Yes, it is. I know every one is looking out for me but that is what they tell me. I can’t help but wonder you know….

Well, whatever doesnt kill me makes me stronger.

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My country of the year

16 04 2009

So, tomorrow is international day. We are highly encouraged to dress up according to the different coutries of the world. I intend to be french tomorrow. Yup and I am watching Cats after school tomorrow. I am spending to learn french. I have the Italian book but the website gives free recordings for french. Collins Pharsebook and Dictionary website. Have fun. I will take pictures and post them up as soon as possible.

I love international friendship day. I love learning about the different cultures and knowing about other people. I love the diversity of this world. It is amazing how much we think we know and how much we actually do. I know very little about the french and although I might be dressing in trendy blacks and the hat they love to wear ( no idea what it is called). French

I am going to study the french language now. I want to impress people tomorrow with my SKILLS. Lol. But honestly, international friendship day isn’t only a time when we get to dress up. It is also a learning experience. As soon as possible I will put up information on the French culture here. They are my country of the year!!!

The Louvre





The wars we fight

17 03 2009

Freedom Writers and the diary of Anne Frank show such inspiration, bravery and courage and everyone of us look at them and go ‘Wow. They went through a lot. They were fighting a war’. Let me ask everyone this. Aren’t we fighting a war? Aren’t we all fighting an undeclaired war? We might not be using violence. We might not be physical in our wars. We are all at war.

Hear me out.

How many of us are going through family problems? How many of us are facing problems at school? At work? Bullies? Gangs?

How many of us are fighting a war with ourselves?

How many of us feel like we have the whole world on our shoulders and at any time, the moment we show weakness, the world would come crashing down?

If you don’t face that, you are either one lucky human being or not human at all. The problem with conflict and war is that it is all around us. We sometimes don’t see it or refuse to see it or we just become the ignorant creatures we can be and ignore it all together. Everyday, we all fight wars. I fight a war everyday. I fight a war with no one else but myself and I know that some annoying person who reads my blog will irritate me tonight or tomorrow. But I really don’t care.

My friend is in one of the most complicated wars I have ever seen. And I don’t even know how to help. She is going through so much and all I do is stand there fighting my own war. She fights a war to be with her family, to protect herself from her family. She fights this war to want to know what being a ‘family’ is all about. It is almost a year since she changed coustody and now I don’t know if I did the right thing insisting she do it. And out of everything else I have to handle, I beat myself up everyday because she is my best friend.

I beat myself everyday and that is one reason for my war. Now, I am fighting for more. I am fighting for respect. Directing my cast and getting respect from them isn’t my problem. Anyone want to know the real reason why I took up this? I wanted the challenge. I wanted the challenge to prove to the adults of my parish that our youths are capable. They say our youths are not active. We aren’t involved. We are respecting our faith. Look. Look at what our youths are putting up. Look. Listen. Listen to their voices. Listen. Listen to the way they praise. Listen to the way they sing. Listen to their words.

Some wars are shared. The respect I want from the adults is what all teenagers want. Don’t believe me? Look in your parish. In your place of worship. In your community. In your neighbourhood. In your city. In your state. LOOK in your COUNTRY. Look in OTHER  countries. Look world wide. Adults believe that anyone who is not working is incapable and hence shouldn’t be given a chance to earn and gain respect. Step in our shoes for a second, will you? You don’t get it. We constantly are told indirectly that we need to prove ourselves. We feel that way. We need to be the best we can be, for our friends, for our families and for the benifit of the whole entire world. We have so much to prove.

People say do your best. It is ok if you fail. Do your best. Be your best for it is all we need. And you do your best and you do fail and you see it in their eyes. The disappointment. The sadness. Everything is gone. And those are the people who believe in you. For those who don’t well, they expect you fail. So you have to make those who believe in you proud and prove those who don’t wrong.

See the war we are fighting….I am fighting.

Freedom Writers.

That is what we are. We should all be given that title.





Control

10 03 2009

Do you really believe in control?

What is control in the first place?

Dictionary.com:

con⋅trol

<a href=”http://dictionary.reference.com/audio.html/lunaWAV/C08/C0804900″ target=”_blank”><img src=”http://cache.lexico.com/g/d/speaker.gif” border=”0″ /></a> [kuhn-trohl] Show IPA verb, -trolled, -trol⋅ling, noun

–verb (used with object)

1. to exercise restraint or direction over; dominate; command.
2. to hold in check; curb: to control a horse; to control one’s emotions.
3. to test or verify (a scientific experiment) by a parallel experiment or other standard of comparison.
4. to eliminate or prevent the flourishing or spread of: to control a forest fire.
5. Obsolete. to check or regulate (transactions), originally by means of a duplicate register.
–noun

6. the act or power of controlling; regulation; domination or command: Who’s in control here?
7. the situation of being under the regulation, domination, or command of another: The car is out of control.
8. check or restraint: Her anger is under control.
9. a legal or official means of regulation or restraint: to institute wage and price controls.
10. a standard of comparison in scientific experimentation.
11. a person who acts as a check; controller.
12. a device for regulating and guiding a machine, as a motor or airplane.
13. controls, a coordinated arrangement of such devices.
14. prevention of the flourishing or spread of something undesirable: rodent control.
15. Baseball. the ability of a pitcher to throw the ball into the strike zone consistently: The rookie pitcher has great power but no control.
16. Philately. any device printed on a postage or revenue stamp to authenticate it as a government issue or to identify it for bookkeeping purposes.
17. a spiritual agency believed to assist a medium at a séance.
18. the supervisor to whom an espionage agent reports when in the field.

Sometimes I wonder why I use dictionary.com
Well, in any situation, you have a certain about of control. However, the only thing you can control is yourself. Your feelings, your thoughts and your actions. You can’t control the actions of others.
If you could….well we can only imagine.
Well, it is all that we can only do. Once we let out thoughts come under our control, we can further understand ourselves and control our efforts to making a situation work out. We can only wait for a reaction for the other party.
Don’t control the world, control yourself.

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Ten things

2 03 2009

The randomness you find on facebook!

TEN ARE YOUS
1. Are you single – yeah…
2. Are you happy – more stressed right now
3. Are you bored – it’s kinda obvious…
4. Are you white -um…no
5. Are you Italian- nope
6. Are you intelligent – I like to think so
7. Are you honest -i think i am
8. Are you nice – OF COURSE.
9. Are you Irish – um….yeah or so my blood line says
10. Are you Asian – yeah

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name – Cheyenne Alexandria Anastasia Phillips
2. Nicknames – chey, yen, yenney, cheyenney, drama!
3. Birth place – Singapore!
4. Hair color – brown….or really dark borwn
5. Natural hair style – really fizzy!
6. Best Friend – Zana and Fran! I can’t decide!
7. Birthday – 13th September
8. Mood – tired
9. Favourite colour – sea blue and angel purple ( also the colours of my room)
10. One place you’d like to visit – the bottom of the ocean

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love – define love
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – yeah…kind of
3. Do you currently have a crush? – i’ve learnt my lesson from putting stuff like that up.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally – definately
5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart – I….i’m not sure
6. Have you ever had your heart broken – yeah
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them – YES! but others told them…..
8. Are you afraid of commitment – i like to think not
9. Who was the last person you hugged – frn!
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – errrr…..

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust? – LOVE.
2. Hard liquor or beer – um….both are ok..
3. Cats or dogs – DOGS! cats scare me
4. A few best friends or many regular friends – a few best friends
5. Creamy or Crunchy – creamy
6. Pencil or Pen – that’s like impossible to choose…
7. Wild night out or romantic night in – wild night out
8. Money or Happiness – Happiness.
9. Night or day – night
10. IM or phone – PHONE!

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – no
2. Seen a polar bear – yeah
3. Done something you regret – sadly, yes
4. Bungee jumped – i will!
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – um…yeah…
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker – yeah!
7. Been caught naked – nope
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back – no..yes…i dont know
9. Cried because you lost a pet – no
10. Wanted to disappear – yeahhh

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes – BOTH!
2. Light or dark hair – as long as its not green
3. Hugs or kisses – dumb question!
4. Shorter or taller – TALLER!
5. Intelligence or attraction – BOTH!
6. Hot Topic or Hollister -???
7. Funny or serious –  in between
8. Older or Younger – olderrrr….
9. Outgoing or quiet -OUTGOING.
10. Sweet or Bad – sweet.. but not clingyyyy!

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd – yyeah
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour -yes.
3. Ever tried walking on your hands – no
4. Ever been to a rock concert – kind of
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – nope
6. Ever been on a dance team – team? no
7. Ever been on a sports team -depends.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production – LOADS OF TIMES
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley?-no
10. Ever been in a rap video? – hell no

NINE… LASTS
1. Last phone call you made -last night
2. Last person you hugged – frn
3. Last person you hung out with – frn
4. Last time you worked – yesterday!
5. Last person you tackled- i dont tackle people
6. Last person you IM’d – herman
7. Last person you texted – dhivya
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – my parents! XD
9. Last person/thing you missed -um….





A guy wrote this

16 02 2009

to girls

We don’t care if you’re friends with other guys.

But when you’re sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn’t help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we’re still there
We don’t care if a guy calls or texts you
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 am
That it can’t wait till the morning.

Also,when we tell you you’re pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/
cute/stunning,we freaking mean it.

So don’t tell us we’re wrong.

We’ll stop trying to convince you
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah,you can quote me.

Don’t be mad when we hold the door open
Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!
dont “feel bad”
We enjoy doing it.

It’s expected.

Smile and say “thank you.

Kiss us when no one’s watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody’s
looking, we’ll be more impressed.

you don’t have to get dressed up for us.

If we’re going out with you in the first place, you don’t have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly,i think a girl looks more beautiful when she’s just in her pj’s

or my tshirt and boxers,not all dolled up

Don’t take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don’t get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible

Don’t talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt,or Jesse McCartney is in front of us
It’s boring, and we don’t care.You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word “handsome”/”beaut​iful”
i’d be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with “Hey handsome!”instead of “Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy”or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand im not sayin i wouldn’t like it ether ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough:if you aren’t being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!!
Ditch his sorry ass, disgrace to the male population
and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they’re doing just to look you in the eyes…. and say “i love you”, and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

Guys repost this if you agree
Girls repost this if you think it’s cute.

Every Guy who isn’t a jerk will agree with this. so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.

ADVICE;
*Holdin Hands*
Girls :If you want to hold his hand,gently bump into it a couple of
times.

*Movies*
Girls:During a movie if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her

*Loving each othe*
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes,give her a peck on the lips,and tell her you love her
too and mean it

*Laying below the stars
Girls; When you’re both laying under the stars put your head
on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.
By 12 am tonight your one true love will realize how much they want you.

Girls repost as: written by a guy.
Guys post as: girls need to realize





My calling?

15 02 2009

WHAT WAS I THINKING???

I can’t do it. Not even if God called me.  It was just out of  impluse. Everyone was pointing fingers and was too afraid to take up the role. All the guys were like ‘NO WAY IM NOT DOING IT’ and in the end im the one that answer Aunty Eliz’s prayers. “Okay, I’ll do it” were the exact words that blurred out of my mouth.

And everyone just stared at me. Why? Why did I say that? I just agreed to direct this year’s passion play! WHAT WAS I THINKING?

I AM ONLY 16! OH WELL, not even 16 yet. What was I thinking? Best part was when i volentered no a soul disagreed. Oh great. Now, I am the director of the Pasion Play.

And on the way home I was thinking to drop it. I wanted to quit. I came back and went to the task although I had every idea to quit. I went searching for the book which I had to get the idea for the script from and then i came across the wrong book, thinking it was the right book. This book is entitled OUR FAITHFUL GOD.

And there is this story written by someone (it was left Anonymous). Anyways, I though I would share it. However, due to copy right laws….well you know the rest.

But it was very inspiring. The lord told the man to go three times and the man gave up excuses and at the fourth time the man agreed.  And it made me realise that I should do this.

SO

auditions will be this sunday, hopefully