Where’s my social life?

31 10 2012

Dear World,

It’s week 10 year in NUS. Strange how everything has gone so fast. I’m starting to understand how the system runs in school and in hall and its everything I imagined it would be… then there’s me not coping accordingly?

It’s strange. I always thought of myself… as being able to adapt to the situations around me. I thought I was ready for the rigor of Uni life and the thing is I am. I’m just not adapting to the social life well enough.

I think it’s harder when you don’t have a stable group of people to confide in or talk to. I didn’t really think I would have this problem. I think I started off ok, befriending my neighbours and all but perhaps because exams are fast approaching, everyone is focused else where… or people use ‘meetings’ and events to socialise. I don’t know. It feels… unusual to me. Work is work, play is play. It’s hard for me NOT to separate the two.

I’m trying to be open to it. I’m trying to be social and talk to people and listen to people and be… as tolerant as I can of some but somehow I keep thinking I might be doing it wrong. There are people who think I’m scary or too loud or aggressive and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m trying to tone down but tensions are high right now. It’s not easy.

Like we will be having an inter-cultural night (ICN) at KE7 this week in which I’m lights manager for… or lights operator… whatever. I do the lights. And it’s not the bad system that gets me… because a man shouldn’t blame his shoe for the fault of his feet… so I can deal with the bad lighting system. In fact, I can work with it pretty decently. It’s  just the performance groups that get me… I guess. I’m not used to a show being run like this. It makes me cringe. It’s hard to express without being too ranty.

Ok I’ll try.

We keep talking about professionalism but we don’t really do it. The show doesn’t feel like it’s run that way. And I know my dictatorial-ness is coming out…. I’m trying… not to be… I just..

Sigh.

I knew this would be a problem

Cheyenne





The Perks of Being a Wallflower : Review

27 10 2012

Dear World,

Yesterday, I went to watch ‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’. I have yet to read the book ( It’s on my long and extensive ‘to read’ list) but I was really excited to go and see this movie. One of the reasons was that after watching the trailer for the first time, I thought I could relate. I knew it would be good. In fact, just watching the trailer alone felt good and uplifting. So I was convinced to see the film.

‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’ is simple a story about how lives were lived. It is a clear and energetic representation of the lives of high school teenagers at that time. It was nostalgic, watching the movie. Whenever the group of friends sat in a circle and shared stories, it reminded me of my friends and how we would drink or eat ice cream and laugh and cry and gossip and talk for hours and not even get bored.

Then there are some refreshing elements to this movie that you don’t normally see on screen. Firstly, everyone has a problem in this movie. Everyone. So much like life. Everyone is screwed up some way or another. It made the story feel so much more real, like nothing was particularly written; everything was organic. This was one movie that I’ve seen so much truth in, its incredible.

Secondly, it was so unpredictable. This is my number one must have in a move, because if I can predict it, its not that good. I couldn’t tell what was happening next, may be I could guess some of the mirror details but you are too caught up the moment to notice sometimes. I surely could not predict the ending, or the middle for that part or the beginning. I couldn’t predict a thing.

Thirdly, I like how.. deep this movie was. How it didn’t scrap over the superficial teen drama that movies normally do. It was funny and real, it felt like I was watching Charlie’s life.

I don’t know what else I can say about it. I could watch it again for sure.

Cheyenne